Tuesday, January 1, 2013

The thirteenth Love, According to others

Yesterday I told my parents that I wanted to spend the summer in Azusa.
They responded with a very quick and almost expectant "okay."
I wasn't necessarily shocked but I sure didn't think that it would be that easy, not that my parents are difficult or anything because they aren't. So in my utter shock, I'm still thinking that this was way too easy and so I brought out part 2 of the conversation and thats to tell them what I have planned, I responded with, "I have a job interview when I return back to school, I'm hoping to get housing by doing summer RA and i'll take a few classes also." 
My father asked why I was asking their permission or what exactly I wanted from their end because as he says, "I'm grown" ( which I still struggle with this a it, the child in me says otherwise sometimes) but I simply told him that I wanted my parents blessing, kind of this little motion of placing their baby bird out of the nest. 
He told me that he and my mom knew this day would happen and that it was coming and here it was and they were prepared with how to answer to it.

So all in all there are three words that this can all be summed up in and those three words are; Love. Lets. Go.
I know its not easy realizing that I wont be home for most of the summer like I have been well, forever. And I know its more comfortable and familiar to wake up to my families faces on a warm or rainy July morning. But at the end of the day, this is what I wanted and because my parents love me they are able to let me go about starting (kickstarting... maybe even scraping the surface) of building my "own life."

Letting go is hard and we assume that because we do it then it implies we no longer have love for that thing or person but really it shows just how deep our love is because we let it go when necessary.
A suffocated love will choke out, grow old and eventually pass away.
But a love that is allowed the chance to breath and stretch, that is a love that will nourish and always return.
Thank you mom and dad for letting your baby bird explore and experience what it means to fly on her own. Thank you for loving me and teaching me that sometimes letting go is a good thing, healthy and necessary.


&That's love,
according to others




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