The thought of intimacy terrifies me
The idea that someone else beside myself will see me at the most
Vulnerable point a person can reach
Makes my insides turn
Were talking heart on your sleeve
Take as you please or leave it
Because I myself couldn’t even touch it kind of thing
And I can say that these thoughts are flowing freely now that the emotional trigger has been pulled
Thus I hold myself closer because in my reality I am my own weapon holder
Thus I hold myself closer because in this reality I am my own worst enemy
See, I have this misconception that vulnerability is weakness but in sincerity
At its best it can be the most powerful strength
So, This is why I wait
Because I can depend on my God when it feelings like i'm falling
Stronger than kryptonite and my hopeless romantic view of a superman cartoon
He is the great I am
On him I stand
I place this vulnerability to rest in his arms protected from my own nuclear bombs
So in him these fears of intimacy lay until the day
He allows me to give a piece or all of this heart away
To the man after his own heart
And though it may seem that really this silver band on this ring finger is a sign for security
This is a promise my heart and soul have made
With the validation of the most high king
Because I refuse to keep placing my heart in the hands of a man who doesn’t know a weed from a rose
I will not keep placing valuable memories in the minds of the ones who despise my God
No longer will I dream of kissing lips that quote their own lyrics instead of scripture
So I will wait
For the man who holds me but holds his Jesus Closer
I will wait for my night sporting the shining armor of Christ
I will wait
The idea that someone else beside myself will see me at the most
Vulnerable point a person can reach
Makes my insides turn
Were talking heart on your sleeve
Take as you please or leave it
Because I myself couldn’t even touch it kind of thing
And I can say that these thoughts are flowing freely now that the emotional trigger has been pulled
Thus I hold myself closer because in my reality I am my own weapon holder
Thus I hold myself closer because in this reality I am my own worst enemy
See, I have this misconception that vulnerability is weakness but in sincerity
At its best it can be the most powerful strength
So, This is why I wait
Because I can depend on my God when it feelings like i'm falling
Stronger than kryptonite and my hopeless romantic view of a superman cartoon
He is the great I am
On him I stand
I place this vulnerability to rest in his arms protected from my own nuclear bombs
So in him these fears of intimacy lay until the day
He allows me to give a piece or all of this heart away
To the man after his own heart
And though it may seem that really this silver band on this ring finger is a sign for security
This is a promise my heart and soul have made
With the validation of the most high king
Because I refuse to keep placing my heart in the hands of a man who doesn’t know a weed from a rose
I will not keep placing valuable memories in the minds of the ones who despise my God
No longer will I dream of kissing lips that quote their own lyrics instead of scripture
So I will wait
For the man who holds me but holds his Jesus Closer
I will wait for my night sporting the shining armor of Christ
I will wait
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